Today was an interesting day. I had to be creative to remain within my regimen holding down a difficult schedule. I sympathize with people who fail to keep their eating disciplines trying to balance it all. I also understand why fast food is so prevalent here ... and why so many Americans are overweight. I had to make several choices today not to eat when my body was starving for it. I experience sensations now I have never known outside of seriously stressful situations. Without food, I get dizzy, lose the ability to focus (visually and in thought), and it seems as if I can actually feel my pulse changing ... rushing, then crashing in some crazy cycle. When I eat food, I can instantly feel the symptoms declining, almost as if I can feel my own body absorbing it and distributing it as fuel. Sound familiar anybody?
I realize that I need to eat every two hours now, and that is almost impossible at my current schedule. I left this morning to go and meet with my former principal and his assistant. They would like me to return to the school, the commitments they desire from me I cannot give; neither will they commit to what I need. It just won't work. So it was a moment of closure. I had a fantastic run there with a lot of different successes. I will miss that place ... but I also look forward to the future. My life thus far has been one wild ride.
Needless to say, I skipped lunch in the process. By the time I got to my office, I was considering the desk as edible. I had several phone calls and emails to make touching base and following up with some job leads and applications I have out there ... and in doing so, I continued to ignore my body screaming at me.
I returned home just in time to take my kids to sports camp and returned home in to grab my youngest daughter, Mileyna, (so my wife could shower) and take her with me to get gas in the truck. Afterwards we returned and I helped get the littles ready. I eventually grabbed the rest of that $7 bag of bird food I told you about yesterday and some vegetable juice. So I went without food from 830am - 5pm ... that won't work much longer. I was shaking. I know that the body's metabolism boosts itself with the right foods being consistently ingested and that refusing to eat is a good way of slowing it way down. So If I am going to do this, I must do it all correctly ... part won't work. But it is SO hard to balance all of this, especially while I am running around.
So to those of you have tried and failed, I understand. I will not fail, so I have to continue to make adjustments. I wonder if I can get paid to get in shape ... any takers? Then looks like I am going to do this the hard way.
I finally ate dinner when I came home from church ... at 10pm. Some of the chicken I grilled yesterday and some fresh corn on the cob. I love it plain ... no salt, no pepper, no butter.
Now as I sit here, I am overwhelmed with the smell of freshly baked mozzarella sticks. I am almost positive that my wife is out to get me. If I disappear, assume foul play please. But seriously, it smells good. Now it may seem a little wrong for her to do that, and I agree. But, in truth, we discussed whether I would expect the family to bend itself to my new foodtopia. I asked her to carry on about her business ... the truth is if I can't handle it here, then I'll crack like a thin piece of glass when I am away from witnesses. Don't be too hard on her, she's doing what I asked.
Now I am in tears about tomorrow. She is cooking a shrimp stew with our fresh shrimp that I buy straight off of the boat and peel myself ... boo hoo! Pray for me!
Additionally, NOLA.com reconnected with me. Apparently they had some glitch that crashed their email. I should be up soon!
Until tomorrow, thanks for dropping by ... feel free to comment!
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